It's been almost four months since I posted about my PCOS diagnosis, and life has been interesting since then. Let me catch us up.
First, the diet. Dr. told me I'd need to go on a strict no-carb diet to make sure the Glumetza would work effectively. I did as I was told for about two weeks, but I think the quick shift shocked my system, and I ended up pretty sick for several days. I was dizzy, nauseous, hungry all the time, had bad headaches, and couldn't think straight. I came to the realization that consuming some carbs, and feeling like a normal human being again, was as important to me as taking the Glumetza and losing some weight. I started to build in some carbs at breakfast to settle my stomach for the morning. I would have a small bowl of Cheerios with a banana or blueberries, and just enough juice to take my pills. Admittedly, I've brought carbs back into most of my other meals, but try to eat as many vegetables and fruits as possible. The Glumetza keeps me pretty regular (sometimes overly-regular, if you know what I mean), but it's the price I'm willing to pay to be able to function at home and work. Since January, I have lost 20 pounds. I'm about five pounds from my wedding weight (2007), and want to lose about ten more on top of that.
Now, the treatment plan. My Dr. said there was a chance we could get pregnant on our own without any kind of procedure, but that did not happen. Despite temping, charting, and monitoring other signs, it didn't happen. I was a bit frustrated, but pleased to have had a period each month at the least. I had an appointment last week and the u/s technician was pleased with my ovaries and progress with the Glumetza. Dr. put me on a plan with Femara, Follistim injections, and another u/s this week. Back on track for an IUI later this month, fingers crossed.
Finally, the emotional journey. Hubby and I have had many more conversations about the emotional toll of this process, as well as where my head and heart are re: having a family. It still sounds ridiculous-- even to me-- to be waffling and going full-steam-ahead with this treatment plan at the same time. More and more, day by day, I'm excited at the prospect of getting pregnant. As much work as we want to do on our new home, and as much as we want to travel the world and do other "free" things together, I want a family with this man.
I'm trying to remain positive. That does not come easily or effortlessly for me. I am a realist, a pragmatist, the polar opposite of my husband. I am always skeptical and think short-term. I tend to prepare for the worst and am delightfully surprised when something turns out well. In this case, I know how important remaining positive is, both physically and mentally. Being happy and hopeful can have a profound effect on your body's ability to accept and process change. Reducing stress is also important for implantation and successful conception. My job is stressful right now, but I know I will have to make a concerted effort over these next few weeks to remain positive, hopeful, relaxed, and happy. I. CAN. DO. IT!!
